Friday, February 24, 2012

   
     This morning my thoughts are centered on communication between people and countries. The news always seems to contain a great deal of miscommunication which creates war, anger, judgement, murder, pain... Good communication creates happiness and joy, a feeling of camaraderie between people.
     The past couple weeks my own emotional life has been miserable because of a lack of communication - I thought I was on a close friends s**t list, and didn't know why? It turned out the problem was a missing letter in my email address and I never got the message. I didn't realize how upset I was, until she finally called me to ask wazupwichu?  We fixed the problem, and we are in balance once again.
     This morning I awoke from a dream which illustrated to me in dream symbology what I had done to create my own misery. Two of my dream symbols (horse and bear) spoke to me quite clearly with actions frustrated by an inability to connect or communicate with a place or person. I won't go into detail. The dream ended with a beautiful white horse prancing around me and then his holiness the Dalai Lama appeared. At first I thought he was sick, but then I realized he was in deep prayer and meditation. I woke up, and knew... you know how you know things, like cosmic consciousness leaked into your awareness and suddenly you know something?  Anyway, I knew he was praying for peaceful communication in the Afghanistan area and the middle east - which is so out of balance. I was being invited to pray along with him. And so I did. 
     So much of our worlds problems are created from not understanding one another's culture and language; and then gossip, rumor, judgement, and or dogmatic ideals are imposed upon someone else.  If we each could be mindful of our tete a tete, perhaps our world, personally and worldwide, could live and breath in balance.
Submitted in prayer and gratitude, Love ~ C

Sunday, February 19, 2012

Finding Hope in Dispair
      Often to our amazement, when we look back on our lives we see that we have survived many trials.  We have all faced moments in our lives when the pressure mounts beyond what we feel we can handle, and we find ourselves thinking that we do not have the strength to carry on. Sometimes we have just gotten through a major obstacle or illness only to find another one waiting for us the moment we finally catch our breath. Sometimes we endure one loss after another, wondering when we will get a break from life’s travails. It does not seem fair or right that life should demand more of us when we feel we have given all we can, but sometimes this is the way life works.
     Life's trials can present instability, loss, emotional pain. Sometimes things happen beyond your control and it feels like everything you have counted on, your sense of security, is ripped out from under you; alone and set adrift on an unknown sea. I cannot offer anything wise about this sense of loss, other than at some point the raw wound will scab over and you will find that you have survived.  

Saturday, February 18, 2012

Imagination ~ Oil for the Soul's expression

"The River"

"Imagination is more important than knowledge" Albert Einstein

"I paint objects as I think them, not as I see them."  ~Pablo Picasso

"Trust that little voice in your head that says "Wouldn't it be interesting if..." And then do it."  ~Duane Michals, "More Joy of Photography"

"It is the eye of ignorance that assigns a fixed and unchangeable color to every object; beware of this stumbling block."  ~Paul Gauguin

I am working on a new painting, the theme involves water (of course) and emotional release. I am pretty happy with it so far. Part of my process involves stepping back for as much as a week to look at the work in progress, live with it like a roommate. I look at color, texture, shape, and composition. It is a good thing to develop your own unique style of artististic language, to truly express your soul.  Here is some artwork you might be interested in checking out:  http://jayalders.com/

Monday, February 6, 2012

Hope in the face of your fears

"Can you imagine what it is to cross an ocean?
For weeks you see nothing but the horizon
perfect and empty
you live in the grip of fear… fear of storms…
fear of sickness on board…
fear of the immensity.
So you must drive that fear down deep into your belly,
study your charts,
watch your compass,
pray for a fair wind –
and hope… pure, naked, fragile hope.

At first it’s no more than a haze on the horizon.
So you watch… you watch…
then it’s a smudge… a shadow on the far water
for a day… for another day…
the stain slowly spreads along the horizon, taking form,
until on the third day you let yourself believe…
you dare to whisper the word:
land…
land…
life,
resurrection,
a true adventure,
coming out of the vast unknown
out of the immensity
into new life."
Sir Walter Raleigh speaking to Queen Elizabeth in
'Elizabeth: The Golden Age'

Thursday, February 2, 2012



Neptune will cross over into Pisces tomorrow.  Here is the Sabian symbols for the 29th & 30th degrees of Aquarius ~ where Neptune currently is at. I have been sorting out what it is I need to do as an individual on this blog, my artwork and daily life. There is a compelling inner urge within me to walk my talk; to step forward into a changed consciousness, for the betterment of myself and the vast sea of humanity we all live with. Perhaps you too are feeling an urge to make a change.  Love ~ C


PHASE 329 (AQUARIUS 29°): A BUTTERFLY EMERGING FROM A CHRYSALIS.
KEYNOTE: The capacity to utterly transform the character of one's consciousness by radically altering the structural patterns of everyday living and the types of relationships one enters upon.
This is the second time within a very short span of the cycle that the butterfly symbol appears (cf. Aquarius 25°). Here what is emphasized is the process of metamorphosis itself. It is the fourth symbol of a five-fold sequence and it stresses the essential character of the activity required at this stage of the cycle; i.e. nothing short of a complete renewal of all the implications of being alive as a human individual will do. A radical change is needed. At this stage, this change is individual and mental, and it  should  be  seen  against  the background  of humanity as a whole. What is revealed is the potential ability of every human being to participate in a higher realm of evolution AFTER his or her emergence from a critical state of transition.
At this fourth stage of the sixty-fifth subcycle the Keyword is METAMORPHOSIS. In spiritual terms, this implies "Initiation," i.e. entering a higher realm of conscious existence and there joining a sacred Company.

PHASE 330 (AQUARIUS 30°): DEEPLY ROOTED IN THE PAST OF A VERY ANCIENT CULTURE, A SPIRITUAL BROTHERHOOD IN WHICH MANY INDIVIDUAL MINDS ARE MERGED INTO THE GLOWING LIGHT OF A UNANIMOUS CONSCIOUSNESS IS REVEALED TO ONE WHO HAS EMERGED SUCCESSFULLY FROM HIS METAMORPHOSIS.
KEYNOTE: The ability for the person with an open mind and a deep feeling for self-transcendence to come in contact with higher forms of existence.
This is the last and culminating symbol of Scene Twenty-two of the cyclic ritual. This is indeed a fitting symbol, as the number 22 symbolizes all forms of mastery. At any level, it is a symbol of spiritual group fulfillment — of CONSCIOUS TOTALITY OF BEING.

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

I was watching an interview last night on the Bravo channel, Actors Studio with George Clooney. There was the usual yadayada re his acting career, then he spoke about his celebrity and tuning the spotlight on Darfur. What he said was rather profound and is in synchrony with my individual rant on water pollution.  He said (not quite a quote) You can turn the celebrity spotlight on a situation such as Darfur, the situation gets attention and sympathy, but it doesn't fix the problem.  It is still there.
The worlds problems are overwhelming, there is so much that is wrong... and there is so much that is right. It would be easy to throw our hands up in the air, declare that I am just an individual,what can I do that would make a difference.
We each can do little things individually to help our cause; recycling, mulching, using cloth bags, writing your congressman, marching on wall street... Taking personal responsibility changes your world and in turn will change the greater world around us. Love ~ C
I can’t change the world, but I can change the world in me.”  U2 ~ 'Rejoice'