Astrology and the Inner Experience

     I don't know about you but 2011 left me feeling pretty beat up. I do hope this new year is better. However, it is 2012 and all the possible attendant stuff that might happen to our world, as predicted by astrologers, psychics, Maya, Native Americans, doomsdayers yada yada. Just the thought of it makes me feel tired, a little frightened and want to hide in a cave.
     My inner knowledge that on some level my soul contracted to be here at this time and place, keeps me fascinated and involved. Maybe (if you believe in reincarnation), I was once a Mayan priest and really wanted to be here and observe the star alignments. Well... why not? ; )  Perhaps I wanted to be here, to observe the moment when the earth, solstice sun, and the Galactic Core are in precise alignment; as we flip over to another round of 26,000 years. This alignment will last for something like 18 years. As tired as we might feel, it ain't over till the angels sing Hallelujah.  
     Astrologically speaking, I have been experiencing transiting Saturn, exercising his will on my 5 Libra planets and then hit me up in about a years time for a 2nd Saturn return. Come on baby, hit me one more time. That old curmudgeon Pluto has been conjunct my Ascendant for several months and he will spin his wheels for a little while longer. I would like to thank both of the dark lords for my education in all matters of the emotional and mental kind. You know, the kind of sticky stuff that just won't go away until you finally deal with it. I am learning to speak my truth, stand my ground in spite of the massive guilt I feel when I am dealing honestly with others. Let me assure you, not everyone wants to hear what you need to say. I feel like I am finally getting close to being my authentic self, and that is good thing. It is an amazing thing to hear the voice of authority in your child self mind; and finally say no, I am going to do it my way thank you very much. Women are trained from the womb, to place others first and play nice socially. Well, that's social sexist political training.
     Also, on another astrological note, I would like to give a heads up to a couple events coming up this year. Watch for May 20 through end of June, probably some sort of announcement, news, unveiling of a lie. I don't know what, just watch for something big that could create a huge shift. Also, Mercury goes retrograde on the day of the American presidential election. The last time this happened was in 2000, and Bush won via the Supreme Court intervention.
     So, there ya go. Peace be unto your hearts and always and forever walk the good red road.
Love, C