Sunday, October 30, 2011

I am present in the moment
I am immersed in my journey
I am here now
I am that and that I am

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Ruminations and Contemplation

I have been contemplating change and definition of self the last couple weeks. Writing and editing, re-editing again, what it is that's on my mind, and trying to find a way to write about it without being too preachy.
I started getting some definitive clues when I watched an Oprah "Life Class" show on her new cable channel. It is essentially her interviews with people, which are exceptionally autobiographical in nature. Anyway, her show served its purpose, which is to provoke someone into re-thinking their life course. "The truth shall set you free. Your life doesn't have to be what everybody else thinks it should be...Whatever you are holding back, keeping secret; whatever it is you are being dishonest with yourself holding you back from becoming you true authentic self."   
     What can I do differently to change the course of my life? What is it in my life that no longer matters, would not be missed if it was gone? To love and honor myself, what would I embrace?
     Life challenges are not meant to be a place in your mind and heart where you live life in a victim mentality. Where you say to yourself, well this happened and I am still grieving and I am comfortable feeling like this and I will not move out of this limited idea of myself. Where something happened and you decide to make a holy event out of it and allow it to define and limit what and who you are. What if you could use your failure to move you towards your dharma? Your reality is based upon some belief you have about yourself ~ it's an inside job. Your beliefs are the narrative of your life story.
Let your life events inspire you. What are you longing for that is the missing piece of the puzzle which will create a unique and honest life for yourself. Be compassionate in this endeavor and remember to honor and love yourself, beyond shame, guilt, remorse... The truth shall set you free.
Anyway dear readers, this has been on my mind. Tomorrow is my birthday, Saturn is conjunct my Sun, Pluto is conjunct my Ascendant, and Uranus is provoking everybody on my IC ( for those who speak Astrology). I am cleaning house, rearranging my furniture so to speak. It is a beautiful, wonder filled experience ~ and I am truly happy to be given the chance to work on my soul life on this great and most beautiful home planet in the great unknowable Tao. I am that, and that I am.
Love, C

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Rest In Peace

"For the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself, "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "no" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart."   ~ Steve Jobs