Thursday, March 26, 2009

I have been undertaking a concerted study of mystical trans-personal art this week. Found some really great artists, web sites and inspiration, immersed my self in study. Checked out Alex Grey first and then went on a journey of discovery. I have been working at this thing called art for a long while, purposely not studying painting under any ones tutelage, took a couple painting classes but didn't want to take on someone else's style. There are some great masters whom I adore and can see their influence in my work, but I wanted the style to be uniquely my own. Although after my studies this week, I see that I am not alone, there are many artists who seek and express the same vision. We are part of the new paradigm placed upon this earth at this time to evolve mankind. That sounds sort of high minded and egotistical. Since I was a child, this is what I have known, and it has taken me to this point to get a lot of crap out of my mind that was put upon me-rules of society. I had to forgive my child self, who didn't know any better. Still got some crap, but not as much.
It is not just painters, but other artists-writers, dancers, actors, musicians-those of us who reflect society and seek to change it through their individual artistic vision. This new paradigm is a chance for us all to evolve.
I have come to this time in my life, more settled into who I am, my life story, self examination, and am ready to begin a new passage. I took a winding wooded path towards the mountaintop, the earth embraced me as its own, this is my home. I look up to the stars and know that I am part of that and that is part of me.
When a star explodes the particles go out into space, enters our atmosphere and we breath it in, we are starseed. There is no alternative way of seeing this, for it is the truth.
I know that I need to express the mystic within, and know that art is a core expression of my soul.
Working out ideas for a multimedia piece, getting my canvas prepared.
Have a show coming up in November to get ready for, and am very excited about that.

Sunday, March 22, 2009

I did the 12 solar ray activation meditation last nite before I went to bed-really relaxed, so much I actually slept in. I feel so very rested this morning.
Been thinking about the Harner method and what I said in a previous post-about healing. Yes, it is focused on healing for others. The tribal shaman is the family doctor. However, the shaman can also be healed. Meditation, activation, journey work is a healing for me too. The realizations and connections with spirit can only be reflected in my artwork, deepening the dreamscape I paint on my canvas. It is a soul retrieval; the shaman (me) comes back with a part of the soul (collective or individual), which has fragmented off, seals it into the patient (canvas), and a healing takes place. Not only for the shaman artist but also for those whom gaze upon the artwork. Which is my ultimate goal, that those who gaze upon my artwork are reminded of who they are, starseed.

It is manifesting your powers in ordinary reality when you bring it through from the other side of the veil, non-ordinary reality.

Saturday, March 21, 2009


Early morning meditation: Went to Stonehenge and connected with an earlier incarnation of my soul. I was a man, a knight kneeling in prayer. I was getting ready to go on a pilgrimage to the holy land. I had long dark brown hair, a beard and mustache, wearing scarlet and had a sword, which was drawn and layed in front of me as I kneeled towards the early morning sun. I had children and a wife, and told one of the children that I had to go to fight for the lord (Jesus).
(I do know in my own ancestral tree, there were several lords, knights and such in England, a couple of whom died in Jeruselem or thereabouts, my DNA lineage is ancient.)

This activation meditation is guided by Peter Tongue. His wonderful web site can be found at , look in the radio section to find his meditations and interviews. The particular meditation which I listened to this morning was the Oneness meditation. There is a cheesy part which has Josh Grobin singing, beyond that it is good. I have worked with several of the meditations and like the 12 Solar Ray and Ohm Crystal activations the best.

I ordered a star tetrahedron yesterday, and have to hunt for the crystal I want to hang from the center of it. This will be hung in my bedchamber to facilitate alignment with all that is.

Dream fragment: a young man being shot, it was a through and through in the face, jewish. The angels were singing, "life is precious."

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Dream frags; sea turtle colored in iridescent blues and greens. A change of furniture at my job. My co-workers child getting sick (she called in this a.m. to say her child is sick and staying home with her).
Working on my new fractile software, integrates wonderfully with photoshop. 
Smudged this morning, felt like I needed some protection and wearing my eskimo whale bone shaman necklace today-feel soft in the middle (moon time) and want some added protection.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Seeking the Mystical Experience

"The most beautiful and profound emotion we can experience is the sensation of the mystical. He to whom this emotion is a stranger, who can no longer wonder and stand rapt in awe, is as good as dead. To know that what is impenetrable to us really exists, manifesting itself as the highest wisdom and the most radiant beauty, which our dull faculties can comprehend only in their primitive forms - this knowledge, this feeling, is at the center of true religion." - Albert Einstein

I have been contemplating the making of art, new ways of applying my experiences onto the canvas, how to convey my mystical experiences in a way that the viewer will understand and comprehend their own divineness. 
So much is happening, learning to let the needless crap go-I don't want it therefore I won't be buying your crap today.
Walking my Dharma-this life is my classroom.
I was checking out Jung today, about accessing the dream-life, journey work, meditation. I think, that in order for me to get there from here, I must re-begin my journey dream work. But in a different way than I have learned before-from the Harner Foundation-which seems to be more about healing. This time I must access non ordinary reality to apprehend mystical experience, and to create artwork from that experience. It is a different way for me to approach art and spirituality and I feel pressed, impelled, to express in my artwork and daily life. 
Galaxy Center Point within you is - Yoda

So I guess what is going to happen in this blog will be my journal of this constant journey towards enlightenment, the holy grail.